“You think about things that nobody can imagine” - Kim Huybrechts opens up on depression battle

Kim Huybrechts reacts after his opening win over Larsson at Ally Pally (credit:Lawrence Lustig/PDC)

Kim Huybrechts has opened up about his battle with depression and admits he came close to quitting darts following the death of his mother.

Huybrechts, 33, lost his father Ludo just days before the 2013 World Championship and his mother in 2017 after a lengthy battle with cancer.

The Belgian thrower has subsequently struggled for form on the circuit, dropping out of the world's top 16 having last reached a major ranking Quarter-Final at the UK Open in March last year.

Huybrechts began his latest World Championship campaign in superb style, brushing aside Sweden's Daniel Larsson in straight sets with a 103 average, and revealed he is beginning to return to his best after a testing time away from the oche in which he considered walking away from the sport.

"I've practiced hard and worked hard for this," said Huybrechts.

"I've been through a rough patch the last year, not performing well, you start thinking about everything.

"I've had a lot of help from family, friends and my manager and professional help as well.

"You can't underestimate how things sometimes go in your life, I've been very depressed and I've been thinking about stopping the game and life in general.

"Everything happens for a reason I think and when my parents passed away, everything goes through your mind.

"You think about things that nobody can imagine.

"I didn't want to travel anymore to tournaments, you've lost the most important people in your life.

"Some people get over it quite fast, some people struggle with it and I struggled with it.

"Everything becomes a task. Going to the shop is a task. Everyone does their daily thing but for me that was hard work.

"I doubted whether I could be one of the best players in the world."

After seeking professional help and embarking on a new fitness regime, Huybrechts is now slowly getting back on track and is eyeing World Championship glory in memory of his parents.

He takes on world number 12 Dave Chisnall in the Third Round at Alexandra Palace but remains grounded over his chances in the sport's blue riband event.

He added: "I'm not going to say I'm going to win this tournament, but I will be back at my best.

"When I am back at my best, I am dangerous for any dart player in the world.

"I had moments when I was thinking 'this might be it for me', I might never get back to the top level.

"When you have to perform on stage every week as a top 16 player, it doesn't get much easier.

"When you're at home and doing nothing but practicing, you get a lot of time to think and when you've been through rough periods, you think about rough times and think negatively.

"But if you go to the gym and do the right things then you're going to think positive and take that into your games and that's the main reason why I exercise.

"My mother went through a rough time beating cancer, she lost the fight but for me she's the perfect winner.

"If I would have had half her fighting spirit, fighting the worst disease in the world, I'd be world number one."



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